In the past 2 weeks while I have been away, I’ve learned yet another lesson about life:
Life is full of discoveries.
Although my name is still Sarah Elizabeth Hollinger and my favorite color still switches between blue and periwinkle, I am not the same girl that last wrote to you. To say it best, over the past two weeks, I have been shaped even more into the person that God has created me to be. This molding though, has come with a price–the price of wringing myself dry between 40 plus hours of work and class plus all of the extra required time to study, to sleep, and to also be a relatively social creature.
But this time of discovery came through another trying experience…
In patient room 6329 of Nashville’s Baptist Hospital, my precious grandmother, Sarah Geraldine Harden, “Mammaw,” has been staying. Due to the progression of her illness, the need for a feeding tube became dire as she continued losing weight, becoming dangerously malnourished. The surgery went smoothly; however, it was what happened after her surgery that scared us most…
My grandmother developed pneumonia. As a result, she went down to just 86 lbs. With her body weak but her spirit willing, family and friends prayed without end that she would continue fighting, to not give way to the illness trying to take over her already frail lungs and body.
In the past two weeks, I discovered many things– 5 hour energy shots, Nutella, that Pre-Med is not for me, etc.–but most of all, I discovered the truth in 2 Corinthians 4:7-10.
“But we have this treasure in jars of clay,
to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us.
We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed;
perplexed, but not driven to despair;
persecuted, but not forsaken;
struck down, but not destroyed.”
2 Corinthians 4:7-9
I am at a loss of words other than to say this: God is greater. No matter what we are going through or how we are being stretched, God is always greater. We may be mere jars of clay, but God revealed to me who I truly was in Him: a jar of clay sustained by Him, the Living Water.
Yes, life is full of discoveries. All types of discoveries. Through good times and bad, we find out who we truly are, what we’re made out of, what motivates us, what makes us laugh, what makes us cry, etc. At some point though, we will all discover that we are fragile, like jars made of clay, and the question then will be this: what sustains us?
So let me ask you now today…
What sustains you?