This was my last journal entry before I went to bed last night. I was desperately tired, but I was also desperate about something else… I was desperate for God to help me overcome what has now become an idol in my life: obsession over my own body image.
Since I don’t have class until 11 am on Tuesdays and Thursdays, I usually sleep in until 8. This morning was different. I woke up around 6:45 and, feeling extremely tired, I tried to go back to sleep. I couldn’t, though, so I laid in my bed and began to wonder if I would ever be able to overcome this obsession; after all, I had already started thinking about it.
That’s when my cell phone began to vibrate. 1 New Message. It was from my mom…
For those of you that are here and aren’t sure of what it looks like when God is working in your life… HERE is a perfect example! God works in our life constantly, and He literally used my mom this morning to guide me in overcoming my idol of food and body image. He says it plainly… “To take my eating, my thinking, my everyday life and to place it before Him as an offering!”
Right now, I’m just praying for God to reveal to me what it truly means to offer ourselves up to Him. What does it really look like to place something before Him as a sacrifice? This is a question that I’ll be seeking to answer through the Bible, my handy-dandy Bible dictionary, and my RUF minister and friend, Brian Sorgenfrei.
Josh Wilson, one of my new, favorite artists, has a song that is really speaking to me this morning. It’s called “Savior, Please.” Below is a link for the youtube video and the lyrics. I hope that it speaks Truth to you too!
Josh Wilson- “Savior, Please”
“Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don’t know how long I’ll last
I try to be so tough
But I’m just not strong enough
I can’t do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I’m nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me
Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because You’re all I have
Everything You are to me
Is everything I’ll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don’t have to prove a thing
‘Cause You’re the one who’s saving me”